A Year Ago Today

 

...this little baby was born. The first few moments (actually I'll be honest, why not?)The first few DAYS I was not impressed that this was all that exciting, the whole "now we have a girl" thing, because I maintain that Miss J looks just like my boys. I know newborns aren't always soo soo cute, but I was expecting for her to at least look more like a girl!

And if she is offended when she's older and reads this, well then she's REALLY not my daughter. She has fit so well into the dynamics of our family, she may be another crazy little Ray boy. There has been plenty of pink, pretties, babies, and plenty of attention from daddy BUT she is just another one of us and maintains her own among the three "men".

More than thinking of this past year, and all that Jordy has grown I have been reflective on the possibility that this may be my last baby turning one. Who knows what the Lord has in mind for our little family that keeps plodding along, taking each day as it comes. We (well me and the kids, and I'm sure Lyal would get used to the idea) would feel blessed to welcome more children into our home to teach, guide, and nurture the best we know how BUT that is not the plan today. Some of you reading this know what that feeling is like. Makes you feel old, excited and nervous to be standing at that threshold. If you cross that line you think you can never go back, and that can be just a little scary. Quiet blogging moments like this you vow to grasp every moment and not let it slip away but you know tomorrow will be full, and fly by, you can't make it stop, but you'll try, when you have time...

As if on cue: Jordy just woke up crying. I'll take this chance to go cuddle my BABY one more time...